Moms Get Real: Worry by Cionin Lorenzo

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“My beautiful daughter was born March 2012, at home. In thinking about your list of things you did not expect with motherhood, I think of worrying. I did not expect to worry so deep down in the core of me. Instinctively.
Physically.
Since the moment I discovered her existence.
It overshadows my love (even as it stems from my love for her) and enjoyment of her sometimes. My mother is a worry-wart and it drove me crazy. So, I’m working on it.
I guess I would add two more things I did not expect to have to confront- letting go, and facing my childhood & upbringing. And although all of these elements add to the challenge, they also make it richer and all the more beautiful. For example, my appreciation for my parents has grown exponentially!”

 

CioninCionin Lorenzo from New York

Cionin was part of our Beautiful Belly Challenge and this is what she writes: “Thank you so much for doing what you do. I have not been able to make a class, not even the videos. But I do read your emails and a lot of times they have helped my state of mind. And heart.”

 

 

Zita writes:

Thank you so much Cionin for sharing this with us. I hope you can lessen the amount of worry you feel. We are here in your support and love, right ladies?

I worried so much while I was pregnant about what to eat and what to drink. I felt that the world was too dirty too chemical and messed up to bring about a little baby. What really helped me while still in pregnancy was what my teacher Hari Kaur told me. She reminded me that babies are actually very resilient and strong. The power of their lungs when they scream is a testimony to that. Physically they are small but they have a big dose of vitality and mentally they are extremely tenacious.

Childhood upbringing. I still remember the line from a film called Arizona Dream. “Daughter always becomes her mother even if her mother is not her real mother”. All of a sudden, I heard my mothers phrases pop up in my head, I heard my father as well, I heard songs, saw places and things I’ve forgotten long time ago. Kind of nice trip, really.

Do you worry a lot? Do you think the more time you spend away from your child correlates to amount of worry you feel?

What helps you not to worry?

Please let us know.

 

 

 

 

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